Why cant I win? I have no clue what it feels like anymore to have multiple winning sessions. Won 2 out of 10 sessions this week and just continue to run into fucked spot after fucked spot. It is like everytime I think how nasty if villain c/r here he does or if he leads this is just gross and he does. I log session after session setting up an image that will allow my big hands to get payed but it feels like I never get any. I mean seriously. The gayest part of a session is grinding for like 90 minutes to lose a stack right as you are quiting. Look at this hand. Is this bad poker? Do I c/f turn or is it just a b/f even though I has the nut redraw?
Villain at question is a 25/2/1 (161) Whats your play?
5 players
Converted at weaktight.com
Stacks:
| UTG | ($196.50) | ||
| CO | ($163.50) | ||
| BTN | ($402.00) | ||
| SB | ($210.90) | ||
| Hero (BB) | ($302.44) |
Pre-flop: ($3, 5 players) Hero is BB
UTG calls $2, 2 folds, SB calls $1, Hero raises to $12, UTG calls $10, SB folds
Flop:
($26, 2 players)Hero bets $20, UTG calls $20
Turn:
($66, 2 players)Hero checks, UTG bets $66, Hero raises to $264, UTG calls $98.50
River:
($494.50, 2 players)Final Pot: $494.50
Hero shows:
UTG shows:
Hero wins $99.50 ( lost -$196.50 )
UTG wins $391.50 ( won +$195 )
SB lost -$2.00
I know I posted last week how I was going to turn it around and yada yada but I am starting to think that I just dont have what it takes to be succesful at poker. My emotions are everywhere while playing which is terrible. I know they shouldnt exist but i cant help it anymore. Over my last 200k hands I am up a whopping 2.4k from poker running at 0.26bb/100 thats not PT BB thats bb. What happened? I dont know if the whole EV graph means anything but I am like 11k below EV. That doesnt really help me.
The truth is poker is a game of skill which involves luck. The skill and luck seem to be very closely related though. The skill is extracting max valuewhile losing the least value. In both cases hidden random luck plays a role. I mean yes we all know if I have AA and my opponent has KK the money goes in and long term speaking no money changed hands but what is long term? 200k hands is a long fucking time. I dont know where I am going with all this but I do know one thing. I am growing impatient.
The honest to god truth is I need to take a break. I think I am just going to take a week off from poker. Seriously I mean I can afford to do it and it is probably the best thing for me. I am just going to read a shit ton of non poker books and do some yoga and shit and just think about what I want from life.
1 comment:
I'd normally just bet the turn again for value. If he raises I know he has me beat and I make a decision based on the odds I'm getting/implied odds I think I have.
The graph is brutal but shows you that you're going through a bad patch. The important thing is to try and just focus on playing and playing your best. If you're not up to playing then don't. It's obviously easier said than done when you're going through a tough time, but that's what you have to try and do or you'll drive yourself crazy.
Taking some time off is the best thing you can do.
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