Well Feb was shit. Thankfully I spiked the BBJ and managed to pay the bills. As long as I drink beer and play poker like a degenerate nothing will ever go my way. It is quite simple tbh.
March the plan is to one again turn my shit around and practice mindfulness. Fuck you alcohol! Since I suck at volume I will try to work 100 hours min this month. Managed 79 in Feb.
In life news I got 9 of 9 on my aptitude test for the Electricians union. Unfortunately because the economy is in the shitter they have frozen the last stage of the hiring process. I am thinking June or July things will bounce back. Looks like I am stuck grinding till then.
The honest truth is poker isnt much fun anymore. I constantly feel pressure to win which isnt good for my mental state. Luckily my bankroll nittiness has kept me safe thus far.
It would be real fucking nice to get to 200NL and make some real coin. Might take some shots mid March if I can get on a roll.
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2 comments:
Spiked the bbj?
"Fuck you alcohol!"
Realize the problem is not alcohol but you and you will start to improve upon this area. I am not saying this from a pedestal or anything like that, it is just from my personal experience with addiction. I couldn't overcome my problem until I got scared shitless and realized it is all up to me to change things. You can do it, I know you can, but you have to want it.
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