Kids R-O-C-K ROCK!!!

So I had a strange day yesterday after thinking about me and was feeling a little down. Nothing to major and then I played poker. Bad fucking choice. I wasnt palying bad but I was just thinking bad thoughts which doesnt lead to good things. I ended up making some horrible choices, actually doing the exact opposite of what my little voice said. Twice I found myself with all my chips in the middle when I knew I was behind before I got them in. This is my one major leak that I am in the process of plugging. Funny thing is I plugged that leak last night. So there I was down about 250 when I close all the tables and decide to take a break. I read some of an awesome poker book as well as a little bit on medition and then as I was headed out to go play ball at the gym my little voice said you should go play more cards. I did and I got my money back plus a little more. I concluded the night with some reading from a little gem that everyone is talking about The Secret. The concepts in this book seem so obvious and when you llok around at where you are and really think about what they are saying it is true. The basic concept is your life is what you make it. What you think about and are constantly talking about will come to. I can give so many examples of this it is crazy but take my car for instance. I always use to see them on the road and I always thought how that would be my next car or at least I wouldnt mind owning one. Seriously, I thought man that Acura Integra is bad. When my las car took a dump I wasnt gung ho Integra yet I stumbled upon one for a good price and after a few breakdowns and repairs it has been my most reliable vehicle to date. Then there is this poker gig. I have been playing since I was 21 and the competitive person I am I have alwayts said why not me? Why cant I be better then these other guys? People are playing this game for a living why cant I? Am I there yet? Kinda, I mean shit I aint working. Results have been so so but that is because of my thinking. The way have spoke of it and thought about it has not been with complete belief behind it. There have been times when I have been discouraged too. Watching your savings shrivel isnt fun either. I look forward to watching my bank account grow as I today declare this my job. I am a professional poker player.

Your probably asking yourself WTF? I know, kids? I spent today surrounded with their amazing energy. Their beatiful untainted always exploring minds. My niece is so amazing you can just see it in her eyes, that kid is special. Marcello, my little man. I love him to death and cant get enough it has been amazing year watching him develop. They are what this whole dam thing is about. (70's stoner movie guy passing a joint) "The kids man the kids."


Lastly the BR$ 3353, thanks to some bonus money even though I am in the red this week still I have made money.