Its a great life.

This is kind of inside joke. My mom always has crazy ending to her voice mail like, "Walk in peace." Just bizarre yet powerful messages and I called my brothers house the other day and his wife concluded the answering message by saying, "Make it a great day." I was like WTF? She is becoming my mom. Sorry Kamahl, LOL. Anywas I said you know what you should change it to, " It is a great day." Much more powerful, right? So hence the heading for my blog today, except I took it one step further.

As far as poker goes I have flirted with the idea of moving up to the next limit which is a 200 max buy in instead of the 100 max I have been playing. Actually I have played like 2000 hands at that limit this month with a very small rofit to show for it. After speaking with a poker friend of mine last night though I think I am going to make the transition a little slower then I planned and just play 2 tables max of the $200 buy in and play 3 of the smaller $100 buy in. I know I am capable of beating either yet no poker player is immune to a bad run of cards. One of the keys to fighting off bad runs of cards though is maintaining a soid BR and not jumping up to quick. If you risk large chunks of your BR with bad results you can go busto quick. Plus when I wrote my goals for this month I clearly stated I would wait to bump. Actually I am going to go read my goals again and I stick to what I wrote. Looks like I will be 5 tabling the 100 game which is called 50NL. The 50 is 100 times what the big blind is.

Anyways I have so much to do today and this weekend so I better go. Hope you all are well and for all you Giants fans, look out the Bronx Bombers are in town.

BR$3353 same as yesterday, havent played yet today.

Kids R-O-C-K ROCK!!!

So I had a strange day yesterday after thinking about me and was feeling a little down. Nothing to major and then I played poker. Bad fucking choice. I wasnt palying bad but I was just thinking bad thoughts which doesnt lead to good things. I ended up making some horrible choices, actually doing the exact opposite of what my little voice said. Twice I found myself with all my chips in the middle when I knew I was behind before I got them in. This is my one major leak that I am in the process of plugging. Funny thing is I plugged that leak last night. So there I was down about 250 when I close all the tables and decide to take a break. I read some of an awesome poker book as well as a little bit on medition and then as I was headed out to go play ball at the gym my little voice said you should go play more cards. I did and I got my money back plus a little more. I concluded the night with some reading from a little gem that everyone is talking about The Secret. The concepts in this book seem so obvious and when you llok around at where you are and really think about what they are saying it is true. The basic concept is your life is what you make it. What you think about and are constantly talking about will come to. I can give so many examples of this it is crazy but take my car for instance. I always use to see them on the road and I always thought how that would be my next car or at least I wouldnt mind owning one. Seriously, I thought man that Acura Integra is bad. When my las car took a dump I wasnt gung ho Integra yet I stumbled upon one for a good price and after a few breakdowns and repairs it has been my most reliable vehicle to date. Then there is this poker gig. I have been playing since I was 21 and the competitive person I am I have alwayts said why not me? Why cant I be better then these other guys? People are playing this game for a living why cant I? Am I there yet? Kinda, I mean shit I aint working. Results have been so so but that is because of my thinking. The way have spoke of it and thought about it has not been with complete belief behind it. There have been times when I have been discouraged too. Watching your savings shrivel isnt fun either. I look forward to watching my bank account grow as I today declare this my job. I am a professional poker player.

Your probably asking yourself WTF? I know, kids? I spent today surrounded with their amazing energy. Their beatiful untainted always exploring minds. My niece is so amazing you can just see it in her eyes, that kid is special. Marcello, my little man. I love him to death and cant get enough it has been amazing year watching him develop. They are what this whole dam thing is about. (70's stoner movie guy passing a joint) "The kids man the kids."


Lastly the BR$ 3353, thanks to some bonus money even though I am in the red this week still I have made money.

Reflecting

So after my blog yesterday I begna reflecting on the way I think and respond to what occurs around me. I am guilty of a constant on slaught of negative thinking. It is amazing! Not like I am depressed and moping around dwelling on my hardships or anything like that just small negative thoughts. Questioning my ability to win at poker when I make bad decisions or tough spots occur. Looking at myself in the mirror and thinking negative thoughts about the body I see. Then there are the thoughts I think about the people I pass by on the street. I vow to try and do away with these thoughts and smile at those I see. To think positively about the person I am and want to be. "Impossible is nothing." This is a true statement and I know it. I will accomplish the possible because nothing is impossible. As you can imagine this week has been tough so far combined with some bad fortune I havent been playing at the top of my game either and this combination has resulted in a minor down swing. BR$3178 Also I am only half way towards my goal of 40K hands but I have been pumping them out this week and wont allow myself to fall short.

School is going well and I have started my second course, an online excel class. Busy, busy, busy. My final thought of today is: Life?

Impossible is nothing

Powerful thought, anything we think can and will happen. Every thought is sacred. So often we think negative thoughts throughout the day without any true thought as to the impact they have. Could it be that every thing we think as an impact on the world around us, no matter how minuscule that is if this is true wouldn't you monitor those negative thoughts some more. I am not innocent, with a brain that never stops, I think many negative things.This is something I wish to change. Everyone of has the same power and energy as the next. It is matter of tapping into that part of you and releasing those negative beliefs and thoughts that keep us at a lower level. Higher consciousness is real, and amazing too. Here is a simple exercise I am going to start and you might want to as well. Find 5 maybe 10 minutes in the day to simply sit in a quiet place and just shut down completely. Think of nothing and breath deeply. The strange thing is when you 1st attempt this your mind will be everywhere. You will see just how bad our minds want to keep working and thinking about so many random things. Shut it off! Become in tune with the energy around you. This is something I have done in the past, yet I stopped. Today I will begin again.

On a poker note I am working towards my goal. Played 2300 hands yesterday and plan on playing as many if not more today. The results from yesterday werent the best but was making some bad choices and lost a few coin flips. Today will be better. BR$ 3266

Happy Dad day to all seed spreaders.

Anyways I apologize for the obsenity. Wanted to write a quick blog on this bust day. I played some more last night and ended up improving upon my best week ever by 230 some odd dollars I believe. I am a little behind on both my poker goal and school. Tonight my main focus will be school as I start my second class tomorrow. Poker will not take a back seat thought. I plan o playing 2000+ hands a day this week. For now I must go and eat sushi with the man responsible for half of who I am, my dad. Again happy Dad day to all.


BR: $ 3314

I do not know...

where to start today. What shall I write about? How about more poker. Things have started to go well for me as I have begun to know when to play and when to take a break. I actually had my best week so far on my journey as a pro poker player. +$523 and I still might play more tonight. Not bad? Anyways I am learning and growing while trying to stick with reaching my goal. I am a little off pace but I can do it. BR$ 3072

I am going to the gym now, it hasn been that productive but I do feel better when I go. It is crazy how the whole eating right and not drinking concept is to grasp. I just love food and there is nothing like BBQ and sipping a cold one on a hot summer day. Funny I think I forgot to mention my test score 84 which isnt horrible. I could have done better yet I felt I might have done worse. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Speed

We all or at least a vast majority love it. In such a hurry trying to get to our destinations. Have you ever slowed down and thought where am I really headed in such a dam hurry? Its funny when you do. Anyways I bring this up because my computer had been super slow as of late and it was making for a real tuff time playing poker while running two other programs as well. Today I spen 1/2 the day getting my laptop retooled so that I wont encounter such problems again. And now I am back on the information super highway moving at mock speed.

This does make me think though, when I was younger I was always in such a hurry to be older and here I am. What now? Do I wish I could be a kid again? Nope. I am down with what I have. I have a great girlfriend with an awesome son. I have some great friends who will always be there in times of need. A crazy yet kickass family who loves and supports me on most every decision I make. A nice quiet 1 bedroom apartment. Plus the knowlegdge to know that I am capable to do anything I want, all I have to do is put my warped mind to it. Sometimes I think we all need to just slow down and take a look at what it is we have and what it is we want and desire. I am not perfect I want a lot but you know what I am pretty fricking content with what I have. Here are two hands I wanted to go the other way: http://www.pokerhand.org/?1178821 ,
http://www.pokerhand.org/?1178826 .
Then sometimes they go like this: http://www.pokerhand.org/?1178831