Watched it last night and I realized something. The line in the opening scene where he talks about poker becoming a grind, I have hit that wall. Poker has just lost something for me. poker is awesome when the cards fall my way and I dont find myself in fucked spot after fucked spot. But when that isnt happening I hate poker. I just find myself worrying about my future and what it will bring for me and my family. Sometimes I feel like poker is just a huge fucking luck sack game. Truth be told I dont know what the fuck is happening. I am back to those gross feelings of last year. Basically I feel an urgency to win money and attach myself to every outcome. The funny thing is whenever I feel like this everything just falls apart. The cards just pile on top of me and own me. This was the last hand of my session as I am closing the tables just now. I literally think to myself how am I going to lose this one when the flop came.
$0.5/$1 No Limit Holdem
6 players
Converted at weaktight.com
Stacks:
| UTG | ($58.15) | ||
| Hero (UTG+1) | ($110.90) | ||
| CO | ($66.10) | ||
| BTN | ($254.20) | ||
| SB | ($75.00) | ||
| BB | ($70.60) |
Pre-flop: ($1.50, 6 players) Hero is UTG+1
1 fold, Hero raises to $4, 2 folds, SB calls $3.50, BB calls $3
Flop:
($12, 3 players)SB checks, BB checks, Hero bets $9, SB calls $9, BB folds
Turn:
($30, 2 players)SB checks, Hero bets $21, SB calls $21
River:
($72, 2 players)SB checks, Hero checks
Final Pot: $72
SB shows:
Hero shows:
SB wins $68.50 ( won +$34.50 )
BB lost -$4
Hero lost -$34
Anyways good news is I did cash out my monthly 3k and still have 100+ BI for 100NL. I decided today that I really need to start putting some thought into my future in poker and consider setting some goals again. Currently I have no goals and I think it is hurting my growth.
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