Losing touch.

I used to be very spiritual and in tune with the energy around me. This has slowly slipped away and I cant explain it. The truth is to move to a higher conciousness takes constant practice. Meditation is key. Once I again I find myself no longer meditating and off track. Hopefully by the end of August my life will be somewhat routine which will allow me to bring meditation back into my daily practice. Also I have lacked any substantial reading. I used to read enlightening books daily now they rest on the shelve. I plan on changing this too.

100th

This is my 100th blog post on here, insane. Life has been crazy and awesome too. The fam is moved in and we are working on settling into a routine. I have decided once again to put college on stand by. The simple reality is I am happy playing poker. I love hiding out in my office and working for countless hours. That being the case why shouldnt I stop wasting away at college doing something I could give a motherfuck about and focus on a game I love which can earn me more money then any fucking degree ever will. I wont count college out of my future, but until it appeals to me I will be on hiatus. Dietary wise I have been horrible and drinking has played a huge part. I am always on about stopping and eating better and yadada. So again I am going to make an attempt to cut driniking out to a degree. Mon-Thur will be booze free. Fri-Sun will be in moderation. This week I am starting a weights free workout that will hopefully help me shed some fat and get my body toned. It is a workout similar to those gymnasts use. Body weight FTW( ftw= for the win). I also plan to get back into my hippy ways a bit more which will hopefully lead to some more rambling on about life stuff. For now I is OUT!

Catch up.

Just wanted to post a quick update of my life. School is done and it is looking permanent. I have been thinking long and hard about my decision and will continue to but right now my heart is with the game. For those who arent aware I turned 27 on the 13th of this month. Last year around this time I posted some goals for my 26th quite a few were accomplished and others werent. I was quite pleased with my 26th year here and look forward to what my 27th has in store. Finally, I will be living with the love of my life and our beatiful son on the 1st of this month. A huge change for me, but one for the better. I feel Our lives will be much easier now that we all will live in one place, hopefully the change will be good for Marcello too.

I know I know the weight issue. I have been in major idulgence mode and packed some pounds abck on which I will be looking to shed by the end of June as I will be in Vegas and then follow Vegas up with Hawaii. Now that school is done I will try to make a few more positive happy hippy like posts which I am notorius for.

Love life!

Wholy fuck!

It has been like forever. I am still alive, are you still checking this thing? Life has been good for the most part and big changes are taking place too. The love of my life will be moving into our house in June with our amazing son. I cant wait. No more lonely nights. Fuck! No more lonely nights. Double edged sword. i was thinking about looking back on my birthday post from last year as I believe little came to fruition. i will do that in the near future. Anyways life is good. School is almsot doen and I have been accepted to SSU for the Fall. Yeah real college. Poker is poker. My game is evolving everyday and I try and not worry to much about the results. I makes money end of story. Friends? well I have a ton but I never talk or interact with them much anymore. Hopefully that can change. If you are my friend feel free to call me. later.

Amazing!

The weather outside today is fucking awesome. I love spring for so many reasons. Anyways just to catch you all up I am challenging myself to play a shit ton of hands of poker this month and am blogging about it on my Plus EV blog which is linked on the right. School is going well too. So far two tests and two A's find out about the third tonight. Just started yoga again and my eating habits are hopefully getting back on track. 200Lbs by mid april? It will happen!

Hope you are doing well whoever you are. Remember one thing. No matter where you are in this life you chose to be there and you can choose better or worse. If you are stoked to be where you are then you are most likely doing it right. Choose to be happy and enjoy every little thing you can.

Results

I just real quickly wanted to report that I got 95% on theb test which I allowed to life tilt me. How fucking stupid! I have no clue why but tests drive me mad.

Why my life RULES!!!

I am my own boss. I have the most amazing girlfriend who loves me unconditionally. She has also allowed me the privelage of fathering her son. He is the most amazing human I know and also loves me unconditionally. Even though my family is one strange bunch they all love me unconditionally as well. I have proven that I can be succesful at something I am truly passionate about(POKER). Though I am still unsure of the real reason why I continue to attend, school comes easy to me for the most part. That is I give little effort and get decent grades. As for needs I have everything I truly need to get by in this world. As for wants I have the ability to achieve all I want. I have a super chill roomate who is actually a very close friend. basically my life is like a million times better right now then it was 1 year ago.

Why I am having a shit day? I allowed myself to let my early test frustrate me and escalate into a really negative vibe. I then decided to dwell in that vibe and some how found myself playing poker. Thus attracting some sweet coolers which escalated to me really fucking hating myself for a brief minute. Its been along time since I have been this down. This is why I wrote this blog. Life is good. It really is for the most part. Of course I want to quit school and focus 100% on poker but something keeps me going back. Its like I feel I have to get a degree for myself. In reality I have to complete this semester and then I will see how summer goes. I think if I do decide to finish school I am going to try to do my last 2 years in 3 semesters.

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